Kitten,
That’s what I come back to, also, and have all along: two worlds. And, honestly, I don’t know how viable that is. But it seems necessary, or so close to necessary that my ability to distinguish between what I want and what I need breaks down.
As I said earlier, I know myself, know my drives and my passions–and know something of the limits of my self-control. I really do believe that we are inevitable.
Love,
Your Querido